OK.. where to start this.

I am going to apologise now for what may happen to me in the next week or so, especially monday 29th.

That date is 1 year to the day that my father passed away and I am dreading it. I don't know if I will cope or weather I will just collapse into a mess. Even coming up to it I feel sad as hell. Imay say some remarks which I may regret or upset someone I really do not mean to. I really hope I dont, but please take it from me, my frame of mind may be shot to bits and wouldnt mean to hurt or upset anyone.

Tommorow is the 1 year anniversary of me joining LTS too. so that at least is something to celebrate. God knows how I would of coped without this place. Which is why I am so passionate about this place, why I love and value the people here. And why people should be proud to be part of one of the friendliest forums in the world. I couldnt post anywhere else my feeling but I feel I can here.

I think a lot of people think liking an 8 year old cartoon girl is wierd. But this forum is not like that, its her cuteness that draw some, her personality draws a lot of others. I think thats why this forum is so close and tight nit. We all see something, a spark which brought us here. One of the sparks is Lisa, but a bigger one is the people.

I made a long post a couple of months after my dad dies and that showed what the people on this forum are. You have all inspired me, you have all lifted me, and with the OC server, chat rooms and broadcast I felt that I need give something back.

Some people have moved on or taken an extended break and I miss them dearly but understand why they are not here. But they still count

A big thank you for being here for me and for being here for everyone, present or not

I value everyone here but these people I really look up to.

Dagdamor, SimpReal, Suusje, Casper, Black_raven, Maggiecute, Kasper, G.H, CalculatedChaos, Beb, CCD, El_Barto, CargoofDarkness, Laguna Sky, D.B., Opus, Anna_Unforgiven, Andreas, amateur poet, brakusaetsya, capadde, fulbert, gazmanafc, janglewolf, matrixdll, leif, Mal?fix, mmaav, nosferaty vanpir, runfromcheyney, shadow nait, spiderpig, springfield horror, syke, the real joe cool, Vicky, loic and more....

Not all these people I have really spoken to, or interacted with personally, but thier contributions of art, fiction and chat make them dear to me. Some are long term members, some have left, some are brand new members. Some i have had disagreements with and probably will continue to do so. But I still value them being here. I count you amoung good friends.

I have peobably missed lots of important people off that list but please don't be disheartened. I am sort of in a floating mood atm and my mind is not engaged properly so feel free to speak up

OK I should probably shut up before people get fed up. But I needed again to post how I feel.

Thanks

-Carl - AKA Empethree

For vanguard i shall add in a reply for you

:SPAM:

I'm going to steal a line from GH out of the thread you mentioned above:
You are making your father proud!

I am certain of that much, at the very least. We will be here for you during this tough time just the same as you have been for LTS.


The measure of a person is not the things they own, or the things they know, nor is it in the amount of time they spend praying. No.
It is simply the size of the impression that they leave in the hearts of those they encounter.

On second glance, that was rather sexist (sorry Lisa!) so I'll edit it because the message applies to EVERYONE!
You definately have my respect and admiration Carl.

I was also never good with words either... But I'll do my best. You're a great person. Everyone in this forum respects you and cares for you. I'm happy to be your friend.  Be strong on the 29th, you also have my support. I will always help you whenever you need.


(I told you I was never good with words... Shame on me )

Empethree
Most of the time i go on forums it is just for the fun of it, and passing a bit of time. A brake in a sometimes busy, sometimes boring day.
I see letters, words, and artwork, pop up on my screen. They come to me by the magic of modern technology.  They are all just bits and bytes when I see them.
But I must newer forget, that behind it all are some very real people. People who, like you, have the right to have there own opinions and feelings.
I think it is a big thing that you make a post explaining this very emotional event. Loosing someone that close is one of the hardest events to cope with in life. And you have every right to fell off balance. You need some time for your self to think. But it is also extremely important for you to stay in touch with other people, and try to express your feelings.


And, I am a bit flattered hat you also mention me, as I am well aware that I am not really one of the very active members here.  

Hehe, I'm also not so active and you also mentioned me, so thanks. Dang, I don't find any words again. Uhm, be strong...

By the way, Kasper is now Miles