
Well... what can i say.
I've been late from answering to this thread and for that i'm sorry. i don't want you to think i'm ignoring this, or giving your praise little credit. I've been thinking each day to find the words to express how i feel about this, but as of now, i can't really put it down clearly

It's a mixture of complete and utter gratitude, of satisfaction, of joy, and of achievement. I can't express into words how i feel... SOMEONE, by reading these words from you and whenever i hear them outside of this forum. I want to thank you all from the deepest of my heart.
On the same side though, i can't help but feel a stinging sensation of wonder.. unbelievability, because i can't believe i'm this "important person" you all seem to be speaking of.
But more, this gives me a feeling of nostalgia, of... having lost something that was very dear to me.
You surely noticed that since a couple of years i'm not drawing almost anymore, except a couple of exceptions. I want you to be sure that i did not lose my feelings towards Simpsons fanart, nor i lost my will to do, and more of all, i still have special feelings for the little spiky haired girl... But there's a side of my personality in these years that has risen at a certain point, where i feel just unable to create freely, like i did in the good times, when SR was in his previous incarnation that maybe some of you remember.
So, basically, the constant will to "reach higher, do better, be better than *insert artist here*" has killed my "draw for fun" side. It's sad, but it's how it is... i'm trying to fight it each day, but it's always been a losing battle until now.
I say this to you not because i want pity, but to implore you to never do my own mistake. Practicing and getting better is just and fine, but NEVER let the will to improve and competition spirit lead your hand and thoughts. A bit is good, too much kills you. It killed me... Metaphorically speaking of course.
So, i said a lot of stuff, probably it's even hard to understand, but i kind of had to let it out... bear with me. Again, i would like to be able to fly come to each one of you, for shaking your hand and giving you a hug of gratitude. You guys and girls are so knd to me
Thank you. For you, i'll never stop fighting, and losing as long as i need to pay for my mistake.